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Dreaming Man
This photo of R at Northern Kin always makes me smile.

But Ramblin Man Russ is something special.

And that's where I hit a problem. The practical, autistic part of me wants to say 'you can't drop an anchor in the middle of the ocean - it's too deep. And in a storm in the middle of the ocean, you don't want an anchor, you want to run with the storm as much as possible to lessen its power".
Picture yourself as a ship in the middle of the ocean.
Now imagine trying to face a storm without an anchor.
The waves hit.
The wind screams.
You try to stay afloat, but you’re completely at the mercy of the storm.
That’s what life feels like without hope.
I get what they're trying to say, but it just digs at me when someone doesn't understand language well enough to know why a metaphor doesn't work. Obviously, the post continues, you need to put your faith in god, the steadfast anchor.
And maybe that's why I don't really resonate with the word - it's not a core value for me at all. Maybe I'm lucky enough to have never been in a situation where hope was all I had, but it feels like the antithesis of agency, and that is absolutely one of my core values. I have control over my own actions, and reactions, and I have agency in most circumstances - again, I acknowledge my privilege in being able to say that.
For me, hope is what's left when you've done all you can, and it's now in the lap of the gods. I was going to write its external salvation rather than internal - but it's not even salvation - it's the hope of it. There's no ability to act on hope.
This isn't a bad thing, by the way. Not from my perspective, at least. I don't live my life without hope - I live my life as much as I can assuming that I will never need to hope.
Back to Paul - but 1 Corinthians 13 this time:
And now these three remain; faith, hope, and love. And the greatest of these is love.