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A little unsettled tonight for a combination of reasons.
Day off work tomorrow, for an audition at Birkbeck, for a opera performance course. I'm ambivalent - not sure why I want to do the course - no rational foundation. Even after long thinking it remains only a gut feeling.
I may well fail the audition. No false modesty, no reassurance required, it's a fact. Moreover, it's an odd and alien sensation, as normally I don't risk doing things at which I might not succeed. (A personal fault - this is the woman who spent years believing that an A minus was a fail.) But if you don't try... on the other hand, do I really want to put the graft in for a year-long course? or just to know that I could if I wanted to?
Day off work tomorrow, for an audition at Birkbeck, for a opera performance course. I'm ambivalent - not sure why I want to do the course - no rational foundation. Even after long thinking it remains only a gut feeling.
I may well fail the audition. No false modesty, no reassurance required, it's a fact. Moreover, it's an odd and alien sensation, as normally I don't risk doing things at which I might not succeed. (A personal fault - this is the woman who spent years believing that an A minus was a fail.) But if you don't try... on the other hand, do I really want to put the graft in for a year-long course? or just to know that I could if I wanted to?
